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I used to be Young and Active In Everything I do..
But Lately, I changed a lot.. I've become such a 'Lulu' whom run away from everything..
I have suffered enough.. I really hate it..
I need to find my real self! My real self whom I promised 3 years ago!!

I am EVIL & GREEDY to myself!!!

I want the things I want and I will try my best to make it comes true!!! One More Year to Go.. I just need to prove something in a YEAR!!! I need to SHOW my Talent and prove to everyone that..

I .. Aywen Wang H, C will be FRESH and KICKING everybody Butt!!!!! Dont you dare stop Me!!! You can't !! Yes, you cant.. Not anymore..

I must not let myself, my family, my supervisor, my teachers down anymore!!

I've survived the biggest fall lately and its all because of hers !!!

I'll not repeat it again, I'll not let myself fall because of hers!! Its pointless and I promise myself.. No more love, No more craving, No more fun..


THE NEW ME!!

Nadzir

Today was just an ordinary day.. Wake up, change clothing, go uni, brush teeth, eat breakfast, attend lecture, do practical, drive back home, find food, watch tv and..
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Only realised that I am going to lose another direct contact with one of my closest buddy!!

His name is Ak. Md. Nadzir Bin Pg Md Juanda...

I went to the airport at about 6.45pm, I didn't want to go initially.. I don't dare to send him off.. I afraid I would cry.. But infact, I almost but wasn't able to!! My heart has become very fragile.. I could feel the heart beating inside me.. I could hear the calling of my breaths.. & in the end, I could see tears welled up his eyes.. his mom's eyes.. his sister's eyes.. his lil brother's eyes.. But why couldn't i see my own tears?

Nadzir has been a great brother for the past few years!! Our relationship are always very strong and we never quarrel since we met each other in 2003, Soas College. He's a great person. Really!! He's not only Charming, but talented in Music, Sports, Social relations, etc..

I really dont know how to describe him.. I really miss him alot.. He's the person who taught me how to SWIM in 1 day!! He's the person who used to share the same food together with me in Kota Kinabalu, Teo Pui Hoon, Red Chilli, etc etc.. He's the person whom listened to me and heard my sorrows.. Somebody that I trust so much!!! He's unique and irreplaceable!!

Always in my heart,

Nadzir..