Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Please email me, eywen_@hotmail.com if you want to contact me.
Sincere,
Aywen
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Old
But Lately, I changed a lot.. I've become such a 'Lulu' whom run away from everything..
I have suffered enough.. I really hate it..
I need to find my real self! My real self whom I promised 3 years ago!!
I am EVIL & GREEDY to myself!!!
I want the things I want and I will try my best to make it comes true!!! One More Year to Go.. I just need to prove something in a YEAR!!! I need to SHOW my Talent and prove to everyone that..
I .. Aywen Wang H, C will be FRESH and KICKING everybody Butt!!!!! Dont you dare stop Me!!! You can't !! Yes, you cant.. Not anymore..
I must not let myself, my family, my supervisor, my teachers down anymore!!
I've survived the biggest fall lately and its all because of hers !!!
I'll not repeat it again, I'll not let myself fall because of hers!! Its pointless and I promise myself.. No more love, No more craving, No more fun..
THE NEW ME!!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Nadzir
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Only realised that I am going to lose another direct contact with one of my closest buddy!!
His name is Ak. Md. Nadzir Bin Pg Md Juanda...
I went to the airport at about 6.45pm, I didn't want to go initially.. I don't dare to send him off.. I afraid I would cry.. But infact, I almost but wasn't able to!! My heart has become very fragile.. I could feel the heart beating inside me.. I could hear the calling of my breaths.. & in the end, I could see tears welled up his eyes.. his mom's eyes.. his sister's eyes.. his lil brother's eyes.. But why couldn't i see my own tears?
Nadzir has been a great brother for the past few years!! Our relationship are always very strong and we never quarrel since we met each other in 2003, Soas College. He's a great person. Really!! He's not only Charming, but talented in Music, Sports, Social relations, etc..
I really dont know how to describe him.. I really miss him alot.. He's the person who taught me how to SWIM in 1 day!! He's the person who used to share the same food together with me in Kota Kinabalu, Teo Pui Hoon, Red Chilli, etc etc.. He's the person whom listened to me and heard my sorrows.. Somebody that I trust so much!!! He's unique and irreplaceable!!
Always in my heart,
Nadzir..
Monday, July 7, 2008
Food & Hunger
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Marriage & Love
Recently, I have been hearing alot of my friend's brother, friend's friend, & even .. *Her who looked like a Him* (ahem.. Cough~) going to get married soon!!
Mm.. I feel like getting married too!!! But unfortunately, I dont have that someone with me.. I dont even have that capability to protect someone now.. Im just a student who is so poor & who can't even take up part time to earn a few $$ to make her dream come true!! Even if I do have that someone, I dont even have that amount to pay for the Wedding Expenses..!!! So, how can I get married still knowing that Im troubled!!
Two solutions:
First, go to bed and start dreaming (It happened once.. I saw somebody but not that someone)!!
Second, be patience and wait till I find a good job, save up..
Sometimes, I lose my patience after seeing 'anonymous' couples holding hands walking together, eating the same popcorn while watching movie together, sharing the same food and then using the same straw sharing the same cup (2 becomes 1 theory?)!!! Grggh... So, I always start to think.. Should I simply target a girl and Shoot out some of my 'Romantic' skills or should I say, Be Gentleman?? Mmm....
Meanwhile, I always tell my pals, "Hey, if you like that girl.. You should develop some guts and confident in you!!" & then, I would then match them up easily by *ahem* ways but of course, that depends if he is willing to follow my advices and do what I teach him to.. Like how to court that particular girl!!! Lols, sounds as if Im a Love GURU~
But then, the funny thing is that, This guru only has a big mouth!! He loses confident when it comes to himself.. So much of saying, but nothing is to be done if the subject involves him!! Mm, perhaps you may think that he doesn't have balls.. But hey, he does (Wanna hear some stories? Lols.. )
Alright, Im now coming 23 and after several past experiences or experience learnt from others, I don't simply shoot out randomly again..
Two cases"
(1) If ever, I found myself charming in the sense that, I realise somebody have a feel for me through a friend or a friend's friend.. I feel its kind of silly to accept her if I dont feel for her and in the end, I'm force to say those harsh words to hurt her!! Toying a girl is just not me!! Furthermore, I don't really like to have Axes neither do i like to be someone Axes..
(2)Or perhaps, after knowing that Im not charming enough and that she'll not pick me through a friend or my own perspective.. I find it risky to continue on telling her.. "Well, I really love you, ??????!!" and then got dumped in the end or worst, no reply forever.. Where you cannot be Sad nor Happy!! It keeps you stuck in the middle of no way!!! Furthermore,I believe she'll be extremely awkward to me again and perhaps see me very Childish.. Like when we were little, we used to say.. "Aywen, I friend you!! You friend me mar?" Lols.. I really miss my childhood!!!
Nevertheless, The feeling is disgusting for both & do you want to have such kind of feeling if you are in my shoes, wasting your $$ (Wait a min, you dont even have $$ if you were me..), time or perhaps, somebody time if you see yourself (referring to me, Lols) as charming~
Honestly, Im very silly in love.. I can do anything just for her (even death, if that would save her life!! I am ready to donate any parts of my organs to her~) I see her importance, her well-being much more than myself!! They say, "Love is blind!" Is it true? Will she blind herself for me too? Will she? Forget about the $$, protection, security because I can earn that later.. Will she blind herself for me and for love?
If she does, then she is the one.. I'll married her and take care of her, for the rest of my life.. & if you're wearing her shoes..
Will you marry me?
By: Aywen W.
(Ps: This shouldn't be a blog post.. I placed it here as a backed-up copy.. You can read the same one in my Friendster bulletin!! So, I hope I didn't violate my own promised!! Hehe.. )
Friday, May 30, 2008
My Feelings Prt 2, Jun08
Myown Restaurant
Lately, my mum told me that there's a restaurant that serve only 'Noodles' in their menu and she told me that, people would queue during the weekend just to taste a bowl of their famous.. Kolomee, Laksa, etc. Mm, Im quite curious and so.. I went to try it out myself~
By the way, I apologize to my fellow Muslim readers again.. The food is 100% non-halal~
*Myown Restaurant, Open as early as 6.30am till 5.30pm*
*The front view appears to be pretty as well..!! *
*The service pretty fast too!!! I just waited 5minutes and the food was on my table!!*
*Wooo.. Charsiew (Roasted Meat) with Wanton Noodle; cost about ~$2.50*
*together with the Wanton (Dumpling) Soup~ $1.50*
*Want some? Hehe.. But I tried it out, it was not as good as the one I ate in Ipoh or the one at Sing U Me, Kg. Mata mata!!! However, its taste quite well for the amount I paid!!! *
*To get there~ Its at Old Gadong, somewhere near 'Concept' computer shop, Borneo Clinic, lotz of tyre shop, etc.. The restaurant is pretty easy to spot!! If you're lost, just look for this new building(Left hand side) below the picture~ Its just behind it.. *
I would rate it 8.0 out of 10 for the price and the taste!!
My coming Bday 08
.. Oh sh*t, that's not a surprise to me anymore!!! Think of something else.. Haha..
The Chinese calendar is based on the lunar cycle and the moon is important to the Chinese. Autumn Moon Festival, literally ‘Mid-Autumn Festival’, or the Birthday of the Moon is on 8/15 of the lunar calendar, a full moon night. It is a time to have the family together, eat a festive meal including moon cakes, and enjoy the moonlight. Children & adults carry paper lanterns and climb hills to get a good view of the full moon. They give thanks to the bright, silvery moon of the eighth lunar month. Some call it a “Chinese Thanksgiving”. (In Taiwan this is also Teacher’s Day.)
When the moon is round, families unite. Yuè yuán, rén yuán. (月圓, 人圓)
Mooncakes are round like the moon. The round shape is a symbol for togetherness and harmony. Made of flaked pastry, they often have egg yolks in the center, to represent the moon, and sweet fillings of red bean paste, lotus seed paste, coconut or nuts. The sweetness of them represents good fortune or good harvest. Traditional red bean paste filling takes days to make. Special molds are used which press special designs in the top. Now “everyone” buys mooncakes instead of making them at home.
On the evening of the Autumn Moon Festival, people carrying paper lanterns climb hills and mountains to get a good view of the full moon. They give thanks to the bright, silvery moon of the eighth lunar month. The Mid-Autumn Festival is also partially a Festival of Lights. The lanterns they carry all have candles in them. Before electricity, people were more aware of the length of the days and the stars, and what happened in the night sky.
Days in China, as days here, get shorter in the fall as there are more hours of darkness each day, but the moon triumphs. They say that the moon is its roundest on 8/15 (lunar).
The later one stays up, the longer one’s parents live. (Although the family “should” be together for Autumn Moon festival and it is always good to remember and worship one’s ancestors, this is not the special day to remember the dead. That is Qing Ming, celebrated on April 4th.
There are many legends about the moon that people remember at the Mid-Autumn Festival. The most popular are about how long ago Chang Èr, lady moon, flew to the moon and how, not quite so long ago, mooncakes saved the day. Chang Èr is also known as Lady Moon and still lives on the moon with a rabbit and a cassia tree. Many mooncakes are stamped with designs of the Moon Lady, the Jade Rabbit, or groves of cassia trees. (Most ground cinnamon sold in the USA is actually cassia.) When you look at the full moon, who or what do you see?
Longer version: According to one legend, 10 suns blazed in the sky in ancient times. The heat burned the earth, fields could no longer produce crops, and people were going to die. The emperor asked for archers to shoot all the suns. Brave Hou Yi was the best archer in the land. He shot down nine of the suns and stopped before shooting the last one. For saving the people, Hou Yi became King and was given an immortality pill or elixir (perhaps from Queen of Wang Mu on the Kun Lun Mountain).
Unfortunately, Hou Yi became a tyrant indulging in debauchery and random killing. His subjects were afraid and hated him. His wife, Chang Èr, was heart-broken by her husband’s change and what was happening to the country. She knew that if he took the immortality pill, the country would never recover. So, to save her countrymen, Chang Èr stole the immortality pill and swallowed it herself. Her body became so light that she flew into the air. Chang Er escaped to the bright, full moon on 8/15 of the lunar calendar. She became the Moon Goddess. She still lives there alone except for the Jade Rabbit and cassia trees.
At this special time of year, the Moon Lady will grant your secret wish. If you have a special wish? Don't tell anyone; don't say it out loud! Tell your secret wish to Chang Èr
*Whoa, Yummy!!!*
Herbarium, Brun May 08
*A photo of proof that I was there!!!*
*At the Wet Specimen Room!!*
*One of the prepared dried specimen.*
*Labelling~*
*Dr. Brahaman & Me at Seri Kenangan Beach~*
*Lastly, I saw this photo on the notice board!!*
Temburong, June08
*Believe it or not, I almost stepped on a Venomous Snake..*
... Looks more like a Cow's dung to me at 1st sight!!! Haha.. Oh ya, this should be the 2nd time I encountered a snake in Bt. Patoi~ The 1st was last year while I was setting up the carnivorous trap alone and a baby snake was slipping off in front of me!!
*Hahaha.. This was so funny!!! Prof Md. purposely posed for the 1st time!! *
.. He was pointing and laughing at the broken cage!! Hehe..
*Im a Banana lovers.. Hahah.. *
*I really pity the Bird inside all the cages.. Most of them were so skinny!!*
*Oh, where's the Eagle?*
*There were so many deer but only one seemed to be friendly~ approached and allowed us to fed it with Simpur flowers.. CUTE leh!!!*
*Take your time, chewing the flowers oh!!*
*Ohh.. Reminds me of Bambi!! *
*Peacocks.. *
*Ahh.. Mouse deer!!! *
*Mr. Owl was Shocked!!*
*& lastly, the hornbill~ 'Grakkk... Grakkk.. Grakahakahhahaha....'*
*I really love this flower!! Its so beautiful!!! Found it at the pond.. *
*The End~*
My Feelings
*Happy*
*Relax*
Hohoho... Being able to meet new friends and gaining trust from everyone of them is the most relaxing moment I ever had in my 22 years of life...
*Frighten & Tense*
On the other hand, Im quite tense after *someone* quoted ~ Ur so 'Famous' now~ It really struck me.. I begin to look into myself and ask myself lotz of depressing questions.. Like Why? What? Where? Who? No body understand me so much as I understand them..
Furthermore, I am also frighten to lose good friends too.. I can't accept it.. Knowing that my good friends are getting smaller in size.. I tend to appreciate them very much!!! Too much till I couldn't stand not quarreling with them if they dare to threaten our friendship!!! I dislike people that doesn't trust me so much as I trusted them.. However, Im always forgiving and will accept them back if they regain their trust on me..
Luagan & Wasai
*Then, we made a pose at the jetty~ Angel's Charlie~*
*Peace at Wasai!!*
... Oh ya, there was a lot of butterflies at Wasai that day!!!
One of them even flew into our car and greeted us!! We were extremely excited!!
*Beautiful flowers.. *
*Not long later... We were stunned by the gorgeous stream!!*
*We took some pictures of course..*
*Mm.. To swim or not to swim?*
*Smile.. *
*There were lots of caterpillars too... *
*Me & Rawi~ PEACE..*
*The current near the waterfall was pretty strong.. Thank god, there was a rope to hold on!! *
... Oh ya, we also spend sometime at the shallow whirlpool region!!
~ It was fantastic and you should try it out!! The feeling was so refreshing and promising!!
*My last photo in Wasai, ~May 08~ =) *